i just bought something on impulse.
i just busted my 500bucks on that.
i just did it like that without any considerations.

i went down, glance through the displays, saw the one that caught my eyes, test test, ask price, then, ok i will take it.

yah, slap me please. i really don't know waht came over me. i didn't even compare prices, didn't even ask for a good bargain. it was just like that.

and yes, i got myself a mountain bike.

shall uplaod that pic when they deliver it to me.
i will learn to love my bike and take good care of it. i will not let anyone take it away from me. hmph.

i may be pampered, spoilt, stubborn or whatever. but its not my fault that i want to have things this way. i didn't ask to get all these, i didn't ask for anything. i'm sorry if i've offended anyone.

i spent my day alone today. something that i will want to do once in a while.

i may have many friends, or rather acquaintances, or alliances. whichever. i have lots of hi-bye friends, but how many good friends do i really have, the kind that really know me inside out, the kind that has gone through a hell lot with me and has seen me change from worse to bad, bad to good. or rather, bad to not bad. i'm not that narcissistic after all, although uray will claim so. hur.

i may be that cheerful, noisy, irritaing, crazy girl in front of everyone. entertaining everyone but there are times when i like to keep to myself and spend my time alone.

i don't see why there's a need to fuss over me being alone and everything. does being alone means something has happened to me or i'm not in a good mood. perphaps, yes to a certain extent, but no to a larger extent.

i'm afterall someone who keeps alot to myself.

it can get quite tiring, having to entertain people at times, having to put on a smile on your face when you don't have a reason to, and having to live up to other's expectation of you.

and yes, i'm alright. don't ask if i'm ok because i am. i just feel like ranting today.

now that regatta is over, i thought i can take a breather from all that trainings and stress. but, hell was i wrong. i'm soon to embark on intensive canoe polo trainings.

why, because i'm in the line up for team 2 in SRRR. i didn't know and never thought, that, i will stand a chance to play in the team. because of my lousy attendace, i never thought that i will be in the line up.

now that i'm in, i can do nothing but to give my best, and to prove my worth in the team just like in the boat.

its not an all-juniors team, there are seniors in the team. and the seniors are pro. i cannot and will not be the weakest link in the team. because, the strength of the team, depends on the weakest link.

but then again, there are 9 names in the team, and only the best 5 will play and the rest will sub.

am i there just to make up the numbers? the same question suraface yet again.

SRRR 1st qualifying rounds on the 24th, christmas eve.