i am so drained.

i am not in the best of mood.

lack of sleep, lack of money, lack of trust, lack of time, lack of luck, lack of this, that and these, everything. ok, maybe i'm just being spoilt. but, RAHH. i need to whine.

ministry of sound yesterday with me, my darlings and i. queue was eff-ing long. we cut queue becasue they already have their hall mates there. so we just waited for about half an hour or so. and in we go.

conclusion: i don't like mos. i still prefer zouk on a wed. really. considering that amount of drinks i had yesterday, i was perfectly sane. maybe my power up-ed. ya, crap.

cabbed back to their hall, and had 5 of us squeezed into 2 beds. slept at like 4 plus and *dang* woke up at 8.45 to make my way down to sp for a match. didn't even felt like i slept la.

tired tired tired.

match against TP. LOST. probably this explains why i'm in such a foul mood.
it was a really tought fight. but, i'm not giving any excuses la. trained down to suntec to meet my db girls afetr match. ben & jerry treat from our coach. splendid. *rubs tummy*

i REALLY hate defeat. i don't like to LOSE. we will fight back harder and take it all back.

gimme a few days, i'll get over it.

maybe this will be my new yr resoulution: qy shall learn to accept defeat. smile at what you've gained from it, not frown at what you've lost. *frowns*

when im in a foul mood, talk to me at own risk. because i will sound so anal you won't be able to take it. *shrugs*

too much party-ing. i want to spend my last day of 2005 just like that. no, not being anti-social or a party-pooper or whatever la. i want to do what i want. period.

2005 has been one of my best year so far. i've learnt so much, done so much. will give a brief summary of my wonderful 2005 when my mind is clearer.