tuition at 10.. dragged myself out of bed at 9.... dragged my feet to take bus den take train... fell asleep couple of times... beginning to wonder if anything's wrong wif me.. always sleeping.. always feeling tired... its like these few days... when i TRY to do my tutorials at night before i sleep.. i'll take a short nap either on the table or on my bed with the lights on and everything.. n den i'll end up waking up in the wee hours to off the light realising that its impossoble to do anything cos im so tired.. and of cos.. lazy to go brush my teeth oso... yawnx... anways my maid made nasi lemak today.. not too bad.. so after lunch.. went to sleep... woke up ard 4plus.. n tuition again.. *faints*... n den had dinner.. watch nkf show.. n im here... again... yawnx... feel as if theres no purpose in life for me... go school to attend boring lectures.. sleep... get screwed by tchers once in a while.. crap around wif my frens... do stupid things... and the thing tt i used to look forward to is such a drag now... odac trainings are no longer the kind that i enjor.. its becoming so restrictive wif many dos n don'ts.. cos pple judge u by ur actions.. n theres is just so much politics in odac... im getting so sick of them... n just cos you're in odac.. the cca that pple in cjc look up to.. you cannot let others have a chance to fault you n stuffs... argh.. im losing myself... everything i do i haf to think many steps ahead.. one blunder n i'll be in deep shit... see wad i mean.. life sux.. pple judge u.. pple tink they noe the real u.. they put u down.. they mess up your life n reputation.. they condemn you... n the list goes on.... n on... n on.......
*..i'm sick of smiling..putting on a false front..i hate to lie..i hate to be good..i miss myself..*